I can’t recall us not together Even before I met you, you were there Behind the raindrops Down each lonely road, waiting But further than my courage would allow
When I finally met you, my life became complete But it took me some time to realize this
I can’t imagine being without you, or being with someone else
I hope our time together makes us both happy And when we finally part ways, we will, looking back, be amazingly satisfied with our lives
I wrote this before I knew I had depression caused by ALS. I’m taking depression medication now, so my head is in a better place, but my body isn’t.
The life I lead is less than the life I follow
I need to find more purpose, more value, more soul
My emotions are empty, my brain feels nearly hollow
As if I’m buried in a deep, dark hole
My wife fills most the gaps that I am missing
She feeds me, pays the bills, maintains the house
I feel guilty, but too lazy to contribute
She’s wonderful — my lovely, helpful spouse
I’m trying (hard?) to move in the right direction
Exercise, therapy, and meds
With luck, I’ll make real progress going forward
And fix the challenge swirling in my head
I was doing some yard work a few weeks ago, and ran into a bunch of spiderwebs. We have seven redwood trees in our backyard, and are likely the home for all spiders in our entire neighborhood. As I was pulling webs off me, this poem started swirling in my head. (It is a take on the song
Riders on the Storm by the Doors.)
Spiders in my ears Spiders in my ears They make it hard to hear But keep them nice and clear They tickle now and then That feeling never ends Spiders in my ears
We went to Lucy’s first communion, and she had a book for people to write congratulatory notes in. She told me not to write anything rude, which got my crazy (poetic) mind going – so I ended up entering this:
Lucy said ‘write nothing rude’ Because she’s in a silly mood. But, I am a funny dude Who has a lot of gratitude – That Lucy’s in my life.
Not bad for slapping it together quickly. I’m a decent under-the-gun poet – another example being my Chicken Every Sunday poem, which I needed to quickly write and share with my siblings after a joint conversation about this mythical book.
So, to explain – there has been an ongoing joke among my siblings that my brother Larry wrote an ‘autobiography’ about my mom serving chicken every Sunday (which she did). Weirdly, there is an actual book titled ‘Chicken Every Sunday’ where one of my siblings subbed in Larry’s name.
We talked about it on a video call, so I felt compelled to write ‘the story’, but ended up with this poem – which I shared with my siblings. Each verse captures something from our childhood lives in West Virginia
May we have some frozen carrots? May we have some frozen peas? May we have some chicken chicken every every Sunday, please?
Running barefoot down the alley, Dust and oil up to our knees. May we have some chicken chicken every every Sunday, please?
Paint the house pink every summer. Paint the bottoms of the trees. May we have some chicken chicken every every Sunday, please?
Bluegill fishing at Westvaco — Catch one? There’re no guarantees. May we have some chicken chicken every every Sunday, please?
Find a horse and bring it back home In the 1970s. May we have some chicken chicken every every Sunday, please?
Garage sleeping — we all did it. Breezeway always brought the breeze. May we have some chicken chicken every every Sunday, please?
Love is an endless plummet into a dim but sparkling chasm
Hand in hand
Trusting the other to hold on tight and not let go
The destination less important than the journey
Love is a favorite novel, worn from use
Delightful and comforting
Each passage familiar, but with details missed or unremembered
Savoring each line, but eager to turn the page for what comes next
Love is a mad dash at the carnival
From ride to ride to ride
As many as we can before the lights go out and the fair closes
Out of breath, still smiling, long after the music fades from memory
Love is a timeless summer evening
The sun setting so slowly, it seems to hang in the sky, unmoving
Casting its copper light – embers visible well after the heat dies away
Until the welcoming night reaches its fingers to guide us home